I do this because

I blog because there are words exploding in my head and I must put them somewhere.

I blog because there are no words at all and maybe if I start writing they will come.

I blog because I want you to know who I am.

I blog because I want to be someone I’m not and I want you to like that person.

I blog so that all of the people who were once in my life and left me behind will see all that they missed.

I blog so that all the people who are still in my life will know sometimes what I’m thinking even if I can’t say it to them; so that the people who might be thinking of being in my life will understand what they’re getting into and run while there’s still time.

I blog because I want to write well and I don’t, and in the hopes that the practice of the writing itself will help me to write better.

I blog because I really wanted to write a book and it won’t come out of me.

I blog because I want to share stories of hope and experience with the parents of other children like mine.

I blog because I hope those other parents will give me some hope to cling to.

I blog because I feel alone and I think you might feel that way too, so that when you read my words we might feel less alone together.

I blog because I’d rather be alone because sometimes being with other people is scary.

I blog because something funny happened and I have to tell you about it.

I blog because I want to turn something awful into something funny so that maybe when you laugh about it I will be able to also.

I blog so that if you only know me in one part of my life, you’ll see that I’m not the person you think I am.

I blog because I think if you know me and you don’t like me that maybe if I share a little of myself with you, you’ll change your mind.

I blog because I want you to think I’m smart and strong.

I blog because I want you to understand that I’m insecure and afraid.

I blog because when I look back on the things I wrote a week or a month or a year ago, sometimes I don’t recognize the woman who wrote those things and I realize my that I know both more and less about myself than I think I do.

I blog so that someday when I forget what I know, or need to remember what I didn’t know, I can come back and be reminded.